I'm still sad. I'm still hurt.
Must be that I didn't know him well enough to understand what is going through his head.
Sucks when someone you thought is a good friend takes you for granted.
I do miss hanging out with him. BUT... It has to end somewhere... I don't want to get into the same situation again. Painful. Awefully painful. As much as hanging out with Shima helps... or going out with Jep or talking to Zai... it still hurts. Looks like its going to take longer than expected to get over this thing.
Note to self:
Sabar feruz... you have some other really good friends out there who cares for you, and who really appreciates you. T____T
Aside to all my friends::
I love you guys! Especially to Shima&Chep, Eema, Zai, Jep & Arm... for being there when I needed them the most :)
OK I'm not sure if THIS was the playlist I played... I think it is this one... yes.. I'm pretty sure its this one.. sebab rasa masa otw ke KB itu hari aku takde add2 lagu2 lain... so setakat 26 songs ni sajer. Jika sekiranya bukan in playlist itu... then it must be the longer playlist which has... 126 songs :P
| Telephone (It Would do You Good For Me To Do You Wrong) | Pitty Sing |
| Best I Ever Had (Grey Sky Morning) | Vertical Horizon |
| Break Stuff | Limp Bizkit |
| If You Could Only See | Tonic |
| The Drugs Don't Work | The Verve |
| Disko Di Rumah (Remix) | Agrikulture |
| Til I Hear It from You | Gin Blossoms |
| Counterfeit (GH Version) | Limp Bizkit |
| Nookie (GH Version) | Limp Bizkit |
| Re-Arranged | Limp Bizkit |
| Take a Look Around | Limp Bizkit |
| My Generation | Limp Bizkit |
| Alive | P.O.D. |
| Boom | P.O.D. |
| Youth of the Nation | P.O.D. |
| Last Resort | Papa Roach |
| Between Angels and Insects | Papa Roach |
| You're The Storm | The Cardigans |
| Sleep Now In the Fire | Rage Against the Machine |
| Dashboard Confessional - Hands Down | Dashboard Confessional |
| Vindicated | Dashboard Confessional |
| It Ain't Over 'Til It's Over | Lenny Kravitz |
| Rollin' (Air Raid Vehicle) | Limp Bizkit |
| Stupid Girl | Garbage |
| Telephone (It Would do You Good For Me To Do You Wrong) | Pitty Sing |
| Go Cry | Pitty Sing |
Another phase of my life is ending. I will be back here soon. Promise.
ends my weekend :(
Had a blast on Saturday. Met up with Jep, Shima n Chep for a movie.... dah berbulan tak jumpe Jep. Watched New Moon... and I must say, Jacob memang hot hahahahahahah.
Ate at Madam Kwan's since the food court was full... jalan2.. tangkap gambar, then balik. Takde la bnyak pun aktiviti aritu, tapi it was an enjoyable day with some awesome company :D
Today went to Muar to see the newest addition to our family, Alya. Didn't see much of the baby pun sebab baby tido... kitorang bz makan dan borak dan tgk TV hahahahahahahhaa.
haih.. so not looking forward to tomorrow.
Dah 2 bulan tak update.. nice..
What have I been up to lately? Not much...
The office moved from Cyber tu Menara TM... which sucks balls. It effin small, toilet STINKS, people just don't know how to use the fucking toilet, AND ITS CRAMPED! There's practically NO parking at all from 10 onwards... bodoh tak bodoh pindah tempat camtu?
I'm working tomorrow FYI... bodoh kan? Tapi dpt cuti Monday + Tuesday... coz I have Annual Leave to clear before the end of this month.. after this I have to clear 1.5 days more to go.
Aku... sangat rasa cam cibai harini.... dalam kereta ada rasa macam nak nangis.... aku tak suke. Sangat tak suke. It's more dissapointing dan sakit hati going out with someone who is half hearted to go somewhere with you, rather than being told that they had other things planned beforehand. It just hurts. Aku bukan nak keluar nak sedih/stress/emo. Kalau camtu baik aku duduk rumah depress sorang2. Jadi kawan-kawan.. moral of the storyy, kalau rasa tanak keluar, ada plan lain, takde mood, dan yg sama waktu dengannya, please, do tell me because I do not like to go out and at the end of the day, feel more shitty than I did before I went out. It just defeats the whole purpose.
Dah.. aku nak kemas baju n tido.. After work tomorrow I'm going back to Kelantan with my brother... Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha to all.
Damn... whyyy must it be another weekdayy T____T I want weekends to be everydayyyyy!
But then again... I'd be stupendously bored if it was... Weekend pun separuh mati nak pK apa nak buat.. inikan pula kalau weekend hari-hari...
Anyhooooo... mom n dad are back from Colombia yeay! Tapi, mak saya tidak pula membeli apa-apa yang menarik untuk saya... hanya sekadar ceklat dan gula-gula. Dan juga kopi berbungkus2 untuk diberi kepada orang lain (bukan anak sendiri ok).
Apa yang saya buat wiken itu hari?
Pada hari sabtu, I went to Aniza's house for beraya with Dot and Azrini. went around quarter to 12. Had some good food and chatted with the girls. Haven't been hanging out with them for the longest time really. I miss them :( But didn't stay that long...coz at about 1.30 p.m made my move to KL coz oredi made earlier plans for a movie...with the usual suspect lah.
saya keluar bersama encek Cine. Aku ajak teman tgk movie. Tapi sebelum tengok movie, pegi makan dulu... kat Wafie. Sebab ada orang tuuuuu... die cakap dah lama tak makan, so pegi tgk bukak ke tak kedai. Langkah kanan le aritue, sebab Wafie dkt rumah die tu bukakkkk. So dapat la makan nasik ayam kukus, setelah sebulan lebih tak merasa. I was not the one who wanted to eat there ye rakan2... ada orang rekues!
Then we headed to the gardens... and watched Gamer. Twas quite an awesome show... and Gerard Butler was sooooooo goddamn hot... like... HAWTTTT GILEEEE OKEIIIIII... Tall, buff, dirty, sexy kinda hot. *droools* Yes ladies, please do go and watch Gamer... even if you don't like those bloody gory type movie, Gerard Butler is WORTH watching. Besides, its not all that gory lah... violent yes... gory, not so much.
After the movie, went to Lowyat.. met up with Alia, and Cine wanted to get something new for his laptop... afterwhich we went beraya-ing at Alia's house. Her mom cooked bihun goreng for us. Lepastu aku kene tinggal sementara yang berdua tu pegi smoking tapi kasik alasan pegi carik topup..cibai tul tinggal aku sorang2... demit.
Lepastu antar Cine balik sambil meng-pickup PC ayahnda kesayangan.
Hari Ahad pula, hari pegi rumah cousin. But before that, followed Kak Pah n Azmel to Subang... for Azmel's bros' open house. Asyik muke aku je kan pegi rumah dierang... dah la rata-rata yang ada situ m asa tu family members, tetibe ade tersentil aku kat situ sorang.. huhuhuh..tapi spaghetti die sedap gile..and butter cake yang di serve pun memang terrrr baekkkk.. butter cake jeee ok tapi sedap nak mampos! It's rich, and not too sweet and not too dry. Awesome, awesome butter cake! They also had Secret Recipe's Carrot cake for their dad's birthday, tapi I was stuffed with the butter cake oredi, so tak termakan la pulak.
After that, we made our way to Kak A'as house at Sri Maya. We arrived around 2.30 p.m...and around 5 minutes afterwards, my aunt Cik Bah, arrived with her sons Naim and Abg Long. Abg Long came back from the UK for hari raya this year, but me and my family were not able to go back to celebrate with the lot :(. Went upstairs to a full house yooo! Food was fantastic, but the bestest thing ever is Abg Jai's air bandung. Its awesomeness is too great for words :P Above all, we had some fantastic company... Ayah Ngah, Mak Ngah, Shida and her soon-to-be fiance, Cik Bah, Naim and Abg Long, My sisters + family, Faisal and Laila, Amir, and not to mention Kak A'a and Abg Jai :)
We went home around 4.00 p.m and sangat kepenatan tahap takleh handle.. Sori takde pictures... pictures semua either with Abg Long, Amir, or with Shida's fiance.. hahahahahaha. Aku busy makan dan posing bila perlu :D
sekarang saya penat.. dan mahu tidor...
Gunait!
Hullooooo... been a while since my last post no?
First off, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri and Maaf Zahir Batin to everyone :) Hope those celebrating are having a wonderfult time with their loved ones in this festive season.
Me.. well.. my parents are in Colombia. They went on Saturday night. So on 1st day of raya, I was celebrating with only Kak Nomi, Kak Pah and family. Had some breakfast at home and then I went to Solat Hari Raya in the morning with Kak Nomi, Abg Fairis, Azmel and Nawal. Afterwards, came back and went to Abg Fairis' parents house at Bangi Golf Club. Was looking forward to the sambal udang kering as usual :D they also had Laksa Penang which was a definite plus heheheheh. Both his parents were not at home actually, coz they were on their way back from Ireland with his younger brother, so the ones who were at home was the eldest sister and family. Afterwards, we headed to another wajib house to visit which was Dato' Md. Nor's house... which we look forward to go each year for the lontong and kari ayam/daging! nyum nyummmm! Then we made our way to Ayah Ngah's house @ Jalan 4, before they left for Kota Bharu that afternoon.
After made our rounds in Bangi, Kak Pah told me to join her n her hubby + baby Aryssa to Shah Alam and Klang (the husbands' (Azmel) side of teh family). Since I'm basically parentless this hari raya and I have no family of my own, I went with them.Turns out I actually enjoyed myself...Had some good food and they were a really, really welcoming family. After Klang, stopped over at Azmel's bestfriends' house in PJ. Where we had Laksa Johor which was awesomenesssss! Kenyang macam nak gile pun telan jugak sebab sedap!
Got home around 8 p.m or so... and I just couldn't bring myself to go bake the cake my sister wanted and for my office. Sooooo I slept around 9 something... hahahahahaha.. Penat la gile!
Woke up early today to bake the cakes. Hope they will taste ok la kan. Notttt looking forward to work tomorrow :( I want more time for holidayyyyy :((.
Anyway... today I'm going out... with encek cine. Going for a movie or something. I need to go out and have fun before work starts. It does get a tad bit depressing taking calls after a while. I am emotionally and mentally tired... penat ok layan customer singapore. Memang kene banyak2 bersabar keje ni.
Ya know.. I just realized... I've had 2 jobs so far... one was when I was in MIDF and then this job I hold right now. And in both jobs, I've had really really really awesome, caring, helpful and selfless colleagues. I mean... when I was in MIDF, everyone was really really open to help and teach me since I have zeeeeeero knowledge in structuring bonds, and in this job, everyone (even those not in my team) are very very very helpful and would sometime go out of their way to help you if you need a hand. I love my work place! Feel like I'm so goddamn lucky to get a job at places like these :) Makes you feel like the job ain't so bad after all!
K all... till next time!
Had been sorta kinda nervewrecking... We had our 1st test.. which I finished answering in 3 hours++.... THREE EFFING HOURS MANNNNNNN!!! T_____T... macam separuh mati aku menjawab... siap halfway aku boleh stop jawab dan bersms sebab tak tahan/tak larat nak menulis... Oh Felicia... why the question like that one T___T...Last person who finished the exam finished at 7.30 pm. We started at 2 p.m. Go figure.
Next day the TM that took over from our trainer even fell sick.. FOR TWO DAYS! Kesian Reuben.
Today we started on the suckiest product ever... and its the mossstttttt asked about thing when customer calls... effing hell lah...Die like dis. What scares me more is that the substitute trainer likes to ask what my answers are for the calculations as a confirmation that hers is also correct.... ME??? CALCULATIONS??? O__o liek... wrong person kot? Tapi so far all my calculations were correct thank god T___T
Anyways...
Our test results are STILL not out... aku risau aku tak pass je.. T___T Tak sanggup rasanya nak retake Supp paperrrrrrrrrr... Katanya TM tu nak correct by today.. haih.. sian pulak kat dia... with all our tahpape answers and writing... mine especially lah kan!
Oh.. and Monday CUUUTIIIII! We opted to cuti ikut S'pore National Day...since both the sub trainer and TM is not around that day, buttttt... 31st we'll be most probably taking calls already... scary shit man...
Agenda...
Tomorrow - menonton GI Joe bersama team mate.
Sabtu - Karok session
Ahad - Hantar PC yang ROSAK (haram jadah punye PC!)
Monday - Hantar kereta untuk di serbis... kasihan keretaku itu kekurangan kasih sayang lately!
Tomorrow and Sabtu I ekceli wanted to cancel all teh plan.. coz got this one person riggghhhhtttt.. he got sickkk..then righhhtttt.. mengada dowan to cancel. Degil much? yes.. very very much so.
Tomorrow is CASUAL DAY! Yes I like casual days very very much :D
Hope everyone has an aweeeesome weekend ahead ya!
Spent Saturday morning at home... went to buy groceries with Mak... bought McD for breakfast, and I got a brand spanking new pair of gorrrrrgeous red shoes thanks to Mak :D
Came home... did some Makmur work... Mak made some awesome beef ribs soup for lunch... then waited for Cine to finish his work before heading over and picking him up. Since he was hungry, and wanted to eat nasik kukus ayam goreng that he had the day before, so we drove to one of the branch nearby his house. Twas really good actually. Worth the money paid for it. It reminds me so much of Kelantanese food, sumpah!
Then after, went to pickup Aphesz... Went for rojak and chendol somewhere in Ampang... Dah la Cine kasik jalan salah -_- sabo je aku. The cendol was so-so and so was the rojak. Then we sent Aphesz home, and headed to BTS for Harry Potter and the Half-blood Prince. the movie was at 9.40 p.m. So after picking up the tickets, we headed to wthe shop where Nan was working at (as always). We had like.. an hour 40 minutes to spare by that time... Wwent looking for a new pashmina as well since I forgot to bring one T__T. While searching for it, found a cute bumble bee costume for my niece Aryssa, so bought that for her too.
The movie overall was prettyy good I must say. For those who didn't read the book might be left baffled, but it was actually pretty good for me. BUT.. omg... the translation SUCKS BALLLSSSS!!!! WHOOOO THE FUCK DID THE TRANSLATIONSSS??? Memalukan tau tak... how bad was it?? went something like this:
Dumbledore: "It has to be drunk until the last drop"
*translation at the bottom read something like: Ianya harus MABUK hingga ke akhir*
MABUK??? MABUK KEPALA HOTAK KAUUUUUUUU...
hish.. stupid buggers... you should just quit your job and give it to someone who can PROPERLY translate... jangan memalukan diri sendiri dengan membuat translation tah hape2... macam babi.
Anyhoooo...
After the movie... went to pickup Nan, and went for drinks in NZ... Cine masa tu mata macam dah nak tutup. so at 2 something a.m we headed home. Sent Cine 1st, then Nan, and I got home around 3.30 a.m...
Am still tired from yesterdayy. physically not that much, but mentally omg... aku kene banyak2 bersabar pada hari itu. I mean seeeeriously.
Thank god its Monday! (tomorrow)
Yes people, I'm still enjoying my time at the Bank :P
sleep time nao... bye!
Sooooo update update!
Reporting in for work was nerve wrecking for me. I went there, and it seems like, most of the people already knew everyone else around them! -_- bloody hell. BUT, I made fast friends with those in my group afterwards.. There's some awesomely nice and gila-gila type... bukan kecoh ye rakan-rakan. 2 1/2 days of orientation went by *quite* fast. I say quite only coz the 1st day felt like AAAGGGESSSSSS.. bodoh betul. No thanks to this one particular person. Trainers and speakers were overall very very nice and fun people! This bank really is something :P They really know how to keep people upbeat and motivated to work and be in the organization.
Thursday was my 1st day in Cyberjaya. I'm in Banking, Singapore Hub. Soooo... errr... in a month I'd be..somewhat screwed lah. But what the heck... I won't know if I can or cannot take the heat if I haven't tried it right? Team Managers are very very nice (the ones that we met so far lah), our trainer is also very very nice and a sweet lady, who's 8 months preggers! Anyway... in my team, there's 9 people so far, and another 2 are coming in on Monday. So far we only have Malays and Indians in our group...dunno why there's no Chinese so far in our group... but for Credit Card and FPP teams there are mostly Chinese if I'm not mistaken. Everyone came from diff background. We have someone who majored in Psychology, journalism, Public Relations and even Engineering! But so far we all get along very well. :D
That said... there are one or two people who..kinda sorta gets on my nerves... tapiii sabo je la.. janji bukan team aku kan :P
Training period will be a pain... but I'm determined to get through it.. 7 systems to learn, 4 tests to pass, a whole lot of E-learning course to finish in 90 days... quiteeee a lot of things to finish lah...Yesterday had some looonggg and confusing briefing on safety and such... but managed to get through it lah :D
BEST PART! We have 2 (Yes TWO) Casual dress day!! hohohoh.. monday n Friday.. nice no? :P I loike!
k k.. tired edi. more updates to come in due time.
daaaa